#44

Hi Girls,

We hope you are doing well. We miss you lots. I have been really missing connecting during our phone calls. You are either out and not available at the court appointed time or you are in the middle of doing other things. I hope in the future we can connect more. I hope your mom will finally let us facetime soon. It is very hard to not get any photos of you and to not even get to facetime with you.

I hope your Easter was nice. It was a long day for us here as we all had ear infections or the flu. We slept most of the day and I missed not getting a call from you. In fact a phone call from you every now and then would be awsome.

You brother is growing fast. He is a big boy. I hope that we will all be together soon.

We love you,

Daddy, Tonka and Nikolas Loren

#43

#42 Catching up

Hi Girls,

We miss you very much. We wish that you were here to enjoy snuggling your little brother.

It a New Year. New hopes, new dreams, new opportunities. So dream big and be kind!

Here are a few photos of your brother. I wish you would send me pictures of yourselves I have been asking for 3 years now.

#41 Missing your sweet faces!

Here is a picture of what your baby brother looks like this week! He is getting big! They say he will be very tall.

I miss you very much.

I am sorry to not have heard from you on father's day but I was so excited to get your card a few days after father's day. It made my day!

I am sorry that you had a tough time with it. I was told you did not want to do it. I hope that in time your feels change because I hold so dear to my heart the cards and pictures you make me.

We wanted to put some artwork up in a frame in the apartment, but I was told you did not want to draw a picture.

So, I am sorry if it was hard for you to sign the card. Your handwriting however is gorgeous! I love the squiggles and loops!

You know, there are things in life we often have to do, and we don;t like all of the, Like I hate doing laundry, so I can understand not liking something.

You are not required to write me or draw me a picture, it just means a lot to me to get them. I still have 2 in my wallet from a few years ago. Best art work in the world.

Anyway, I love and I miss you.  I am working over time to try to make the money faster for visitation and a vacation. I am doing everything I can. I hope you always know that no matter what anyone says, you can always ask me and I will always show you how hard I have worked to try to see you, call you, and such.

I found out today you do not want to video chat. I am not sure if that is how you really feel, I understand. But I will only accept this NO from you girls if you have tried it once, and have told me yourself you never want to do it again.

I think that it is healthy to try new things.

And I think we should use technology to keep us closer not apart.

It is worth a shot. 5 minutes of your time, just like when Daddy was deployed, and you liked it.

Maybe you could like it again.

I hope so.But if not then not... but know that I am always here willing to take your calls video or over the phone!

I hope to get a few pictures soon. I really miss your faces and smiles!

Love you more than you know!

Daddy!

#40 BABY BROTHER!!!!!

Hi Girls!!!

I am so excited to share with you that late last night we found out you are going to be having a little brother!!!!!

How wonderful!

I hope that you will find love in your hearts for Nikolas. I am sure he is going to love you very much!

Nikolas is coming and I can't to see my two girls and little boy together! How awesome would that be!

Love you,

Daddy!

# 39 June 16, 2015

Dear Desiree and Daisy,

A month ago, your daddy sent a letter to your mom telling her that we had some very special important news to share with you. He told her that your dad and I really wanted to do it over the phone's video chat capabilities. So that we could see one another.

You mom wrote us back and today we received that letter. She does not approve of us talking to you over video chat to tell you about the baby.

I can't live all my special moments in life to not include you.

I want you to know some things....

Your Dad loves you so much. You Dad and I had to move away. We did not decide that we did not want to live near you anymore one day and leave. If people are telling you that they are lying. Simple as that. If you pray for the truth God will shine in your hearts.

Your Dad and I miss you all the time. We keep a part of our home always designated for you. Pictures, your things, things we collect for you.

And no matter what anyone says, God will have my back on this one, and I want you to know that...

WE WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU no matter who tells you we don't.

I have some news now... That I wanted to tell you face to face. But since your mom won't allow me to talk to you I have to do it this way. This is NOT the right way. This is NOT the way we planned. But this is the current only way no one can stop me from writing you and talking to you.


So I am sorry it has to be this way. We had a very big plan to have things very special to tell you and I am deeply sorry that it won;t be allowed to happen. It makes me and your Dad very sad.

So here it is....

You are going to be BIG SISTERS!!!


There is a precious little baby that God put in my belly growing in there and no matter what anyone tells you, no matter how horrible they make it sound I want you to know this always

GOD CHOSE YOU TO BE BIG SISTERS!

God knew you would be make terrific big sisters and this little baby will hopefully grow nice and strong and be born healthy into this world. It will be your little brother or your little sister FOREVER no matter what anyone says about it. GOD picked you to have a little baby sister or bother to love and it loves you forever too.

So no matter what anyone says,

Your Dad loved you first. He will continue to love you forever.

I loved you when I met you. I will continue to love you forever.

This little baby growing knows that God gave you to it as sisters and it will love you forever.

No matter what anyone says, God will show you that this what I say is the truth. I promise. Forever!

God never makes a mistake. So we know already that this baby was meant to grow up to love you. And that is such a great gift from God.


I will keep you posted as the baby grows. We find out if it is a boy or girl in a few weeks. I cannot wait to find out!


Here are two pictures of me right now. My belly is growing fast and is round.

Every night Roko has to check the baby. He sniffs my belly for a few minutes to check on the baby. If I do not let him he cries until I do. It is super cute!

I love you always no matter what,

Teta Tonka

# 38 Summer Fun!

Aw, I miss you girls so much!

We has so much fun last summer!
I wish that we can go back there right now and spend time together!
But we can't live in the past. We can only live in today, wish well for the future and keep the memories we have made along the way.

I love you and miss you so much it hurts.

All my love,
Daddy